Monday, January 10, 2011

Battle Cry

8 months into the battle and herein lies my cry.

When the battle had just begun I remember sitting in worship one Sunday morning as this song rang through the sanctuary. Voices and hands raised, together.

It was new to me that day. A worship song I had never heard before but the words so alive and real. I've been on the battleground before.  The words flooded through my mind and ran to the deepest parts of my heart.  My voice lifted with the rest.

The battle field laid before me and the opposing army was coming....the diagnosis still fresh, as a wound that has just been afflicted dripping drops of bright red blood. Breast cancer thronged in my ears. My surgery on the horizon and over that hill the landscape was unknown, but there was the enemy charging forth.

I stood. Armed in the power of His might ready to declare His name.

I remember many a Sunday the pull in my heart to be among God's people, worshipping together. Maybe, you too, can relate to this draw. As an army stands against the enemy collectively and yet, you too, stand individually. And together the power of God blankets His people and possess you.

The power is so strong. You can't deny it and are brought to your knees in a posture of praise and worship.

He alone is worthy. He alone is God. And because of Him, no weapon on this earth or in the hands of the enemy can be used to defeat the power that God possess.

Oh, the battle ensues and Satan tries to take us down bringing defeat to our minds. But in Him, there is no defeat. We are conquerors and co-heirs with Christ.

So we stand. We worship. And we fight in the power of His Truth. For Truth always defeats the lie.

This cancer will not have me because God does. That is the truth.  May this cancer be used to refine me that more of His Truth may be seen through me.

That is my battle cry.

And on this battlefield, when the landscape is uncertain and the terrain unknown. I stand strong in my God who knows the hills and the valleys. Trusting that He will guide me through.

He has done that and more.

And this Sunday, as I sat surrounded by God's people, this battle cry rang out once again. The next phase of the battle dawning. Radiation begins tomorrow. My emotions laid just under the surface, ready to spring forth. They were hidden even from me. As the words spilled forth from my heart to my lips to the throne of God, so too, the tears came. Not tears of pain. Not tears of sorrow. Tears of triumph. Triumph for what He has already overcome and triumph for what is to come.

And I will bring praise. For no weapon formed against will prevail.

I will rejoice. I will declare.

God is my victory and He is here.

"Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and the power of His might." Eph. 6:10

(pause the songs at the bottom of the blog so that you can listen to this song. 
There are a couple seconds of silence in the beginning.)

This is my prayer in the desert
when all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord, through the flame.
And I will bring praise. I will bring praise.
No weapon formed against me shall remain.
I will rejoice. I will declare.
God is my victory and He is here.
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand
I will bring praise. I will bring praise.
No weapon formed against me shall remain.
I will rejoice. I will declare.
God is my victory and He is here.
All of my life in every season you are still God 
I have a reason to sing. I have a reason to worship.
I will bring praise. I will bring praise.
No weapon formed against me shall remain.
I will rejoice. I will declare.
God is my victory and He is here.
This is my prayer in the harvest
when favor and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be emptied again
the seed I’ve received I will sow. 

Much love,


Anonymous said...

Please know how powerfully God's glory is seen in you. It radiates!


Anonymous said...

After I wrote that, I realized my poor choice of words - oops. I simply meant that your light is not hidden. It is visible and shining brightly.


JillAileenJones said...

Praying for a mighty victory. I am always so touched by your posts. You are such a witness of God's great love and grace-such a light for Him.
Praying Jeremiah 29:11-13 for you this week.
Thank you for wonderful posts.

Mom to 9 Blessings! said...

Stacy - that is one of our family favorite songs and has seen us through many hard times in the last year. I praise God for His words of truth that wash over us and the gift of song so that we can praise Him even still!

Know that as you begin this new journey and walk through another door many are waiting for you there with praise and worship to bless you along the way! God will carry you through this too!

Much love and many blessings!
PS Be safe driving tomorrow!

A multi-dimensional life said...

Stacy, He has used you so powerfully in my life for sure!
You are a witness to the world of the power, peace, love and victory in Christ! It is wonderful to see how far you have come in your are so right GOD has you! Oh how beautiful.

Jenny said...

Oh Stacy...Your words are amazing and your testimony is powerful! Once again you have ministered to my soul!

I L-O-V-E seeing your precious face on my blog every time I get on my computer. What a blessing and privilege it is to pray for you. You are AWESOME and I am claiming for you today...that the battle is HIS!!!! May your go forth is peace knowing that He will fight this fight for you!!!!! PRAYING!!!!

Lisa said...

God has heard your heart. I pray that his healing annointing power will rain down upon you.

Debbie said...

How this blessed me as always! Praying all goes well today. Soo much love!! Debbie

Susan said...

I followed your link on Lynn's page this morning and I was so very moved by your testimony.

We are walking through The Battlefield with our oldest daughter, Suzette, who was diagnosed with lung cancer on September 28.

We stand firm in our faith and belief in Our God for a miracle for her and I stand in agreement with you.

Janette@Janette's Sage said...

Sorry I am late getting are probably at your treatment today, but I remember to cover you in prayer each morning and will lift you up more today.
Beautiful words of truth for whatever battle lies before us.

God's power is made stronger in our have shown that lesson to be so true...may He continue to hold you as you rest in His arms and allow Him to do the walking for you....

Darlene said...

He shines through you!
We are ever ever praying for you Stacy! For peace and healing victory!!

LisaShaw said...

Precious Sister, I've not visited in a week but have prayed for you!!!

You are so right...cancer doesn't have you only GOD DOES! Anything we face doesn't have us -- we belong to the LORD.

Stand on His Truth my sister as you already are. His Strength, Joy, Love and Healing power is all over you, in you and through you! Trust Him.

I love you!

babyrndeb said...

your posts have a way of always touching me right when and where I need it...
even though you are walking through a battlefield you are choosing to honor God. How special that is
Great song by the way too.
Love ya,

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

How are you doing, Stacy? I thought about you today while getting my last chemo. I pray you are resting in the truth of God's Word and keeping to your faith. It sounds as if that is exactly what you are doing... deliberately living your kingdom conferment.

I'll meet you on the road!


Anonymous said...

You are truly an inspiration. Your faith and trust is amazing and I am most blessed to find your blog and read it. Thank you, I will pray for you Stacy.

LisaShaw said...

I was thinking about you this morning and praying for you so I came by to tell you...


Crown of Beauty said...

thank you for opening your heart up to us in such a gentle and beautiful way.

YOur faith will see you through...a greater beauty awaits you in the end.

I praise God that you have not lost your song in the night.


He & Me + 3 said...

Amen! You are His!
Praying for you.